Ok so I broke up with E today…. I’m kind of sad about it but I know it’s for the best. He wasnt being a good boyfriend to me at all and he basically admitted he stopped trying. Hearing that your own boyfriend doesn’t accept you or tries to blame the fact that he’s uncomfortable with himself on you feels so shitty. I still need to get all my stuff back from him though and I’m scared about that. The next time he comes up we’ll have to see each other… Which i know will bring back a lot of feelings because we are literally PERFECT for each other in person. I’m scared about that I don’t want to break down or have sex with him (ok I pretty much know that will happen) we agreed to talk and stay friends. I think that it’s kind of good we broke up cause now I can go to college ANYWHERE I want and not feel guilty about it. We both agreed if we’re both in college in Massachusetts (and he mans the fuck up and deals with his fucking issues) we might give things another shot. We may have failed, but I don’t regret our time together and I still think we could work out someday. Also I want a medal for dating someone for a year that i met online who’s bipolar and has ADHD (no meds for either) AND lives 6 hours away AND met me when I was completely closeted. I know we’re not the first couple to break up cause of distance… Or the last. But E was there for the best and worst times of my life and you never forget your first love. I’m ok with how things worked out. My goals for my next relationship are to get the guy to go fbo with me and tell his friends about me etc. maybe these are too lofty but I still have hope.
whatever stumblr,com I legit laugh whenever I think of that tinychat like it was honestly the funniest conversation of my life I can't
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA oh my god and the time when dom talked about the girl getting her period at the beach and someone was like “shark attack” AND the fucking hymen jokes and all the shit we talked omg i’m dying
encapture said: It doesn’t matter if he meant it or if it was out of spite. He said it and that is enough for him to fuck off. You should be with someone who is excited about holding your hand, in public or in private.
very true….. it would actually help if i wasn’t so dependent on him/ the weakest person in the world
ok so on monday night my boyfriend told me (basically) that he’s embarrassed to be associated with me in public because of how effeminate i act… and that if he was dating a guy (he named someone specific) that was more masculine he would “come out publicly, hold hands with them in public, and go fb official”
i feel like absolute shit about this… how can he say they loves me but is embarrassed to be associated with me in public? i get not wanting to publicly come out etc because he’s not comfortable with himself, but saying he would if he was with someone who acted more masculine is totally different.
i need advice… am i fucked in the head for staying with a guy who feels this way about me